THE ONE TIME SENTIMENTAL JOURNEY

I gave myself a break one day I let ME think of the past.

Of the buts and ifs’ I reminisced and the

Could be and maybes’ I dwelt on.

In rushed why without warning?

How did this happen to me?

Poor me! Lucky them!!

Lonesome me. Happy them.

What have I to smile about?

My mind struggled to keep afloat.

A tunnel opened it was lined with the slippery stuff of

self pity. I peeped in and self righteousness grabbed

me.

I slowly slid into the never ending down ward spiral of

self justification.

It was cold to look at but my feelings burned holes into

the fabric of my being. Bitterness I could taste in my

mouth.

Yes, it sure was a break I let myself have!!!! It was

breaking me alright!!!!! It happened so quick!

So I hauled myself back to the present and yes I like it

here in today.

The past is over and the future is not mine. Today is

my playground and do I want to play.

YES!

Everything has two sides.If your perspective gives you

peace you can hang on to it even if no one else agrees.

But when you feel like justifying your stand at every

chance you get. It is Time to try another

perspective.

I forgave. Then nothing else was left to do but the job I

love so well. And the day unfolded busy but the mind

was stable and calm. That is how I like it, its’ like a

million bucks to me!

Have you collected your million!

Love always

Joscelyn Fernandes

Break the unsaid Rule

Inner Power rules the earth it’s not about the few on

the top and visible to the rest of the world.

It is about the hundreds of millions who are just as

talented but who have an audience of maybe one or

less.

The system creates the hysteria and hype but in

actuality they are just as ordinary or extraordinary as

anyone.

In order to make one larger than the other the reason

is far from noble. The results are far from dignified.

Celebrities are neither exempted from pain or

insecurity. They have flawed judgment like anyone

else. And suffer the consequences. It’s all in the news

for all to see.

Break the code that the world is for the fortunate few.

Life is for all.

Yet we have the system that we worship the creation of

illusion to get away from the reality of our lives.

We want something else for ourselves but instead of

working towards it. We seek quick fixes in the make

belief life of others.

Resources are plunged repeatedly into the bottomless

pit of keeping this illusion going! We are a part of

keeping the Fantasy going.

There are a hundred million singers in this world even

as I write who are talented and use their talent to

spread smiles where they are.

There are hundred million dancers in this world even

as I write who are talented and use their talent to

spread smiles where they are. This is so for every talent

known to man.

God given talents are given to spread love.

Talents are to be used to spread joy.

Talents are given to be used for the benefit of others.

Not for one’s own glory!

That’s why all climbing and achieving ends in the

reversal of fortunes. No one remains the same unless

they are using the talents for the good of others.

That is when it becomes endless and fulfilling as was

intended.

Celebrate and give those who are with you! Treat them

with the same awe and admiration you afford the silver

screen idols or any other famous personality who you

have never met.

Spend your time energy and love on them while you

have the chance.

Waste not another moment on a daydream and live in

the moment with the people who surround you.

That all you have, live it!

Love always

Joscelyn Fernandes

DISCERN LOVE

Love lives. It is in the acts not the words. It is in the thoughts which lead to kindness and consideration. It is living.

Love never ends. In tough times of breathless confusion it is love which drives and hopes. It is love which allows the feelings of optimism resurface and take power. It is endless.

‘Of course with my prince charming I will but naturally live happily. And life’s forces will rock and roll to the beat of my drum.’ This comes across encouragingly like love. However this is not love. This is expectation.

Love is a secure & balanced feeling of well being. Love is unwavering and does not rock and roll to life’s twists and turns.

It does not change with circumstances. It wants nothing in return. It does not fear losing itself for another. It has no prospect for self. Love always wins for its joy lies in the triumph of others. It is joyful.

Peaceful, creative, forgiving, kind and compassionate are the eyes of love. It seeks the happiness of another and in that alone lays its happiness. It is ever evolving.

Unconditional is love. No reasoning or barter takes place in love. It gives for the sole rationale of giving. It is generous.

Loves lives the judgment of optimism. It speaks words of caution. And prayers for the safety and well being of the reckless loved one. It embraces the stumbling one. It is breathing conviction.

Haste plays no role. Patience is its face. It embraces the outcome for the good of the loved one with open arms. Hope in life is love.

Its love when you go with your instinct and don’t give up on yourself or a child and refuse to listen to the voices which are contrary to what you feel. Faith in oneself is love.

No two people can love exactly alike. No two people are alike and each can love only as uniquely as the person is. To compare and contrast is a ravage of time.

Faith, hope and charity have no flame without love.

Use your time well.

Live LOVE!

Love always

Joscelyn

Tryst with Paranoid Thinking

Fearful is the mind of outcomes and end results so it struggles to find ways to control and stop the unstoppable.

Faith is no visitor in this environment. Hope has fled to another time and age.

You are standing as if on the edge of a cliff set on a bowl of jelly.

Imaginations are as fluid as real. A hazy feeling like smoke blurs every thought of calm.

Surrounding everything is a tight, unhappy & destitute goal.

The goal being I have to DO something. DO IT MY WAY and try and

keep trying to make it all well! I claim this is not unreasonable. I say

I know best. It’s my life I should know. Isn’t it?

Defenses up. Every thought goes back to that thought. What if?

Doom looms large? Despair is so friendly.

Arrogance stems from the likes of this kind of thought control. This was news to me. How can arrogance cause the hot ball escalating downhill to my ruin? When everything that I am trying to do is to stall that very situation of devastation?

How?

Mistrustful is the heart as I listen to the logic which seemed unreal and anger takes over.Not possible says a voice it is mine.

How can I not do anything to make things better?

How can I be expected to not scold, contrive & connive? It’s my life after all?

Suspicious of every intention

Obsessed with finding answers

I lumber on.......

Bad-tempered are the demands on one self and the other. This leads to more despair.

Then I stopped to pay attention to the logic of the Serenity prayer

God, grant us the...

Serenity to accept things we cannot change,

Courage to change the things we can, and the

Wisdom to know the difference

Patience for the things that take time

Appreciation for all that we have, and

Tolerance for those with different struggles

Freedom to live beyond the limitations of our past ways, the

Ability to feel your love for us and our love for each other and the

Strength to get up and try again even when we feel it is hopeless.

A strange calm descends as surrender no longer means giving up hope. Rather it’s a method to think things from a different perspective. It is a road where human dignity is restored.

Pride rides out into the sunset. Saddle bags full of the past misconceptions.

Never to reign in this mind again.

Promise made. Promise kept.

Love always

Joscelyn

MY LIST OF AWESOME THINGS

I am amazed by

The flow of paint from a brush

Pen strokes of a calligrapher

The art of writing the Chinese characters

The mercurial run on Arabic script

The learning capability of children

The colours of an evening winter’s sky

I am thrilled by

The sound of raindrops on a rooftop

The streams of water flowing of corrugated sheets

A child’s writing and drawings

The success of others

An understanding heart

A twinkle in the eye

I am moved by

The reality of love

An outstretched hand stops your stumble.

Consideration of a stranger

Broad reconciliation bridges

The spirit of cheerful staying power

Doing to the best of one’s ability

It makes my day! What makes yours?

Love always

Joscelyn

IMAGINE

Small hands wipe tears of the face of another little one

Tiny hands clap for everything

A smiling senior citizen

Honest advice no hidden agenda

A warm hug

Opponents shake hands

A helpful hand extended and received as such

A fistful of earth in a concrete jungle

A look of love in the most ordinary moment

Excitement of a win

Tears of a loser

Laughter of a tramp

Satisfaction of a job well done

Credits acknowledged

A smile through tears

Confidence revisited

Trembling chin soothed

Withdrawn expectation

Peace in thoughts

Promise fulfilled

Compassion in speech

Comfort in words

Pardon in the final analysis

Imagine a life without these moments!

I don’t want my life to be without these moments.

Do you? Can you?

Love always

Joscelyn

TEN TOP OPPORTUNITIES TO LIVE AND LEARN

1. Let you heart rule your head. The turmoil which ensues will spin your life turtle. Let it! Then find your head on your shoulders thereafter each time and every time.

2. Let a blunder rake and rile you for a chosen period of time [limited], feel the harm it does and then forgive yourself and go on to honor your better self.

3. Let the fear of being disliked hamper and stunt the quality of thought, word and deed. Then pack up fear with no ceremony and start to think, speak and do freely as you believe.

4. Let the discomfort of confrontation hijack and gag the need to know the truth then pluck the courage and face the fiends. Vapour is the natures of demons, a wave of intend is all that is required to push forward.

5. Let persons belittle you for love and misplaced loyalty then silently move out of reach and make room for precious thoughts which uplift and guide actions of love.

6. Let people manipulate and distort facts in order that you act in response in a certain way then choose to be true to yourself and think for yourself.

7. Let the need to be loved lead to actions your instincts disagree with. Then feel the freedom of not having to try to be loved and know that to be loved is not earned its just there.

8. Let peoples opinion rule your choice, words and thoughts and then move on to become independent of validation of another. Listen to your inner voice, it leads and comforts like no other.

9. Let noise be your screen and defense and then visit the silence of your spirit, never to return to the din for here lays your integrity.

10. Let you treat yourself harshly. This is a hard one to see. Cause it’s too close for comfort. Sometimes a lifetime passes before you can see, believe and act in your interest. Don’t let that be the case with you. Treating yourself with love, care and respect is the key to doing the same for others.

Love always,

Joscelyn